Your SMILE
I’ve had a very tiring and perhaps sad days last week, you know, moments like as if your mind is who you are, manipulating everything though I know for a fact that our brain is indeed the master of our very body, well, scientifically…that’s how I think, my lil week’s burdens started. Hahai..its so difficult at most times to suppress your mind’s reasons…
A certain thing reminded me of my dreams, my ambition of becoming someone more productive than I am now..then sadness just overwhelmed me, Oh my God…this is what I hate bout my self!here we go again badidat (I thought)…the next procedure as my s.o.p?longer iiiiiinhale…..exxxxxhale…hooh!hahai..funny but its my seasonal routine,I mean everyone has his or her own way of getting rid of sadness, failure or should I just say, negativities, of course people do feel that!(DEFENSE2x!)..hehehe..Kidding aside, and to continue my week’s story, I spent my nega times with books and magazines (love them when my kapraningan is on), bombarding my mind with positive thoughts for it to finally shut its own mouth up, huhuh ‘coz my mind kept on asking for more logical explanations..blahblahblah…nyways reading stuff did help me, thank God! Then I remember to check on my soul’s health why I am so weak to feel this way? (an after effect from reading lots?).. I realized, there are things that are not really understood by our brain but our hearts can, mysterious?(ignore your mind’s question, you’ll just end up tired). Yes, there are really things that exist of which only few could realize or could understand beyond what we are ought to (normal simple being)..only to find out, I need to visit my physician, OUR HEALER. Well, I did come to church for a confession and invited friends. Honestly, when it comes to this very sensitive and private conversation, can’t help my heart from beating so fast but God’s love prevailed (after a long hours of waiting for my turn)..He welcomed me, while speaking to the priest, having my eyes closed, retrieving from my brain’s memory and allowing my heart to disclose everything…Certainly, my tears poured out as our Lord’s instrument utter every powerful word..his last line was, HAPPINESS HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE PERSON HIMSELF, HOLD ON TO YOUR FAITH, HE LOVES YOU VERY MUCH, UNCONDITIONALLY…Then I felt a tight and warmth embrace from God, telling me BELIEVE ME, I LOVE YOU and YOU ARE HEALED…Undeniably, I felt His presence, His love, His mercy and grace! He’s always alive, HALLELUIAH! It was a sort of renewal for me, people like me end up sad because we are used to make our own requirements on “how my self to be happy”, “I’ll be happy when or if, and only if________”(as father said). When our own plan didn’t work the way we want and expected, we feel failure, rejected, and the worst hopeless!.. Problems and trials are just earth bounded! why should I put to risk the chance of Eternal Life w/ Him? Again, Hey problem! meet my BIG GOD! hahha..then that tittle problem will run away trembling to death! nyanyanyanyanya! Seriously, it’s at all times much much nicer to give back something to God in return for the BIGGEST Blessings He is always giving us, even our smile..believe me too, He smiles much much much (infinity…) bigger to see you having a THANKFUL HEART! Start it now..SMILE!
